What does mental illness look like?

Can you tell me what a person with a mental illness is supposed to look like? Or how one should behave? I cannot tell you how often I heard: ooh wow, but you do not look ill (and let’s forget the fact that for some it is not considered a true illness at all). If you...

Letter to My Suicidal Self

Dear Suicidal self, I am writing this letter to you because I see you, I hear you and I feel you. I know life has been hard and I know that you have faced some unspeakable challenges. Been in some dark places. Experienced unnecessary evils.  For years you have powered...

For Real For Real

I thought I would share with you how I have been. Ever since I restarted blogging, quite a lot has changed. And surely with the current developments you could have seen on my other social media outlets, I felt it was just right to just catch up. So much has changed as...

So what Changed…

As you guys know I was not able to work or even function properly. I did seek professional help, started my therapy sessions and did a lot of home work. It all did get me out of the house. Firstly because I had to, in order to attend my sessions, secondly because I...

How I Self Medicate

In order to cope with the deafening negative noise inside myself I found myself reaching out to some substances that I thought would help me redirect the focus, and numb my feelings. I am well aware that the things mentioned below were not fixing anything. But I was...