Commitment issues

Already having commitment issues… Haven’t even shared my first project, only started out some weeks ago with writing.  Not been frequent with my posts or even with my creativity. As I might have mentioned before, I am one lazy piece of work. My head and heart will overflow with ideas, fired up passion ready to be released and molded into something concrete. Enthusiastic and positive vibes buzzing through my veins. All the right ingredients to be productive and consistent. And yet I manage to stand in my own way and do absolutely nothing.

A damn shame and waste!

But within all this frustration there is a lot of happiness and growth at this moment. Even though I suffered from a serious flu for weeks, I feel so good about myself. I had to make a very hard decision, (will share that sometime soon) but this decision was one of the best I’ve made in a while. It freed me of a lot of hurt, frustration, unfulfilled longings and expectations.

This weight that I let go, made more room for me and me loving me. So yes, deserved or not, have been cutting myself some slack, maybe too much. This just because I made myself proud! But it is time to get back at it. I am doing this for me. Project is done, already started with a next one. Only wait now is having the pictures taken and posting it…

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